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Jesus!... Carmel 26 April 89
It is Jesus who is in charge of saying happy birthday for the 20 years of his fiancée!...
What a 20th year fertile in suffering, in graces of choice!... 20 years! age full of illusion... tell me, what illusion do you leave in my Céline's heart?...
So many memories between us!... It's a world... Yes Jesus has his preferences, there are fruits in his garden that the Sun of his love makes ripen almost in the blink of an eye Why are we of this number?... Question full of mystery... What reason can Jesus give us? Alas! his reason is that he has no reason!... Céline!... let's use the preference of Jesus who has taught us so many things in a few years, let's not neglect anything that can please him !... Ah ! Let us be gilded by the Sun of his love... this sun is burning... let us be consumed with love!... St Francis de Sales says: "When the fire of love is in a heart every furniture flying out of the windows.” Oh ! let's leave nothing... nothing in our heart but Jesus!...
Let's not think we can love without suffering, without suffering a lot... our poor nature is there! and it is not there for nothing!... It is our wealth, our livelihood!... It is so precious that Jesus came on earth on purpose to possess it.
Let us suffer with bitterness, without courage!... “Jesus suffered with sadness! Without sadness would the soul suffer!...” And we would like to suffer generously, greatly!... Céline! What an illusion!... We would like never to fall?... What does it matter, my Jesus, if I fall every moment, I see my weakness there, and it is a great gain for me... You see that's what I can do and now you'll be more tempted to carry me in your arms... If you don't, it's because you like seeing me on the ground... so I'm not going to m worry, but I will always reach out to you with supplicating arms full of love!... I cannot believe that you are abandoning me!...
"The Saints when they were at the feet of Our Lord, it was then that they met their crosses"!...
Cherished Celine, sweet echo of my soul!... If you knew my misery!... oh! if you only knew... Holiness does not consist in saying beautiful things, it does not even consist in thinking them, in feeling them!... it consists in suffering and in suffering from everything. "The holiness! you have to conquer it at the point of the sword, you have to suffer... you have to agonize!...”
A day will come when the shadows will disappear, then only joy, drunkenness will remain...
Let us take advantage of our unique moment of suffering!... let us see only each moment!... a moment is a treasure... A single act of love will make us know Jesus better... it will bring us closer to Him during all eternity!...
Sr Thérèse of the Child Jesus of the Holy Face nov.carm.ind.
